divinegrace_1992

..mY uNkNoWn ProbLeM..

2006-07-24T10:44:00.000-07:00

MoOd: Deppressed
LaSt SoNg SyNdRoMe: Its amazing how you, could speak right through my heart. Without saying a word, you could light up the dark. Try as I may I could never explain, what I hear when you dont say a thing. The smile on your face makes me know that you need me, the truth in your eyes saying youll never leave me. The touch of your hand says youll catch me whenever I fall. You say it best, when you say nothing at all
~~When you say nothing at all ||by: ronan keating
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Meron talaga akong problema hindi ko lubusang ma-explain..

una yung namimiss ko sya pero parang sinasadya nyang di sya magparamdam para lalo ko syang ma-miss.. tapos si another one naman, nasasaktan ako tuwing nakikita ko clang magkasama..

Tapos isa pang problema lagi kong hinahanap ang mga bagay na wala pero yung mga nandyan di ko naman ina-appreciate...

Dagdag pa yung never ending schoolwork na di ko alam kung kelan ko matatapos!!

At panakit pa ng ulo yung mga napakarami pang bagay na nasaisipko..!! HAY!!!!!

Naku! Yung ateneo essay!! tsk tsk!!!

WaLa LanG...

2006-05-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

MoOd: NaNgUnGuLiLa
LaSt SoNg SyNdRoMe: I'll be your dream, i'll be your wish, i'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything thAt you need.
~~TrULy, MaDLy, DeEpLy by SaVaGe GaRdEn

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QuEsTiOnS
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Are you?
*sensitive = DeFiNiTeLy!
*easily hurt = ObViOuS Ba?
*calm = n0t AlwAys
*quiet = NeVeR!
*choosy = kindA
*very shy = DI NgA QuiEt ShY Pa?
*confident in yourself = mAybe n0t..
*brand-conscious = yAh.. kindA..
*a good listener = yEp..
*easily bored = dEpenDs..
*an only child = No..OnLy GirL
*happy at the moment = No..DePrEssEd
*tired = n0..
*playing any online games = yAh
*good at Chess = SorTa, KinDa..
*tempted by chocolates = Di Ba HaLaTa?

Do You? ..
*believe love at first sight = n0
*have someone you really care for presently =no
*believe in love = yEp..
*play the guitar = gusto ko, pero di ko alam
*play the piano= gusto ko pero di ko alam
*play the drums = gusto ko pero di ko alam
*like your life = SiGuRo
*like school = LoVe schOol..
*like dancing = SyEmPrE
*like sweets = yAh..
*like travelling = yAp..
*own an Xbox/ playstation = Ps1 and Ps2
*like Spongebob squarepants = SiNcE BiRtH..
*ride a bike = yUp..
*read Harry Potter = AdEEk po Ako!
*yell at your siblings = YeLL and RaMbOL!
*argue with your parents = ocAsi0nAly..
*love McDonalds = yeAh!.
*play basketball = No..
*play badminton = yUp..
*play tennis = yAh..
*play bowling = no.. .
*swim = yAh..
*skate= dI Ko KaYanG I-BaLanCe Ang SaRiLi KO!
*watch Disney channel = SiNcE uMuSo AnG cAbLe
*love movies = yAh..
*like Oreo = yUp..
*like chips = yAh..
*do the housework = sO sOmetiMes..
*love your friends alot = Of cOrz!
*tell your crush you like him/her = HiNdI
*you love him/heR? = Oo NaMaN

Will You?
*get more than 5 piercings = YUcK!
*curse a friend = tagal ko na yan ginagawa
*hug a stranger = of c0urse n0t!
*further your studies overseas = pwEde..
*try summoning a ghost for fun = n0..
*try alcohol = NeVeR!
*love someone whole heartedly = GiNaGwA Ko Na
*smoke = NeVeR!

Have You ever?
*hug someone = pAreNts..
*look someone in the eye = dUh..
*done stupid things that finally made u realembarrased = yAh..hihi..
*said sorry to someone = yEAh..
*thank someone = yAh..
*get married = s0medAY?
*love the person you admire now = ObSeSsEd? JoKe LaNg!!

MeMoRiEs...

2006-05-20T11:59:00.000-07:00

MooD: NaAsAr KaY...

LasT SonG SynDromE: Don't you ever wish you were someone else, you were meant to be, the way you are exactly. Don't you ever say you dont like the way you are, when you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
---> Stay The Same by Billy Crawford (ata di ko sure kung sya nga ung kumanta)

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Abstained Recollection

For about 2 years since now, I met someone, that at first I instantly thought that he will always be in my heart forever, but I was wrong. His gentleness and sincerity that I first saw in his eyes and in his personality gave me something more than a smile when I see him. My heart leaps for joy each time I hear him laugh. He takes the breath out of me as his hair plays along the soft gush of the wind. I always felt his presence every time, every minute and with that simple thought, I just couldn’t resist on keeping a warm smile that’ll greet passer by and startle them.

During the start of the second part of the term, I felt so lost. Lost in a world where I felt I couldn’t go anywhere beyond. My dreams and fantasies were shattered at a flicker of an eye. The sky that was painted blue had turned to a blinding darkness. I felt so empty because I never expected someone to believe me, nor for someone to listen. The noise made by my heart, telling e to let go, was too loud to be audible.

Until now, I am still wandering on whatever may happen next. I am so afraid of facing the miserable moments in my life when I kept on crying, blamed and was the one at fault. I am so afraid to open my heart, since the scar has not yet been mended and I doubt it’ll go back to its normal self. All my tears were already emptied out and my feelings are now at a constant decrease.

I keep on trying to find my other self, but it is still attached to him until now, and though I tried to remove it fully, it just wouldn’t let go. I tried to turn my back at him even if his only inches away, but my heart was already pinned to his direction. My shadow of love and happiness always follows him around, but only a replica of an abstained recollection envelops me.

I was falling, falling so deeply into the trenches of unknown. Deciding whether to believe or ignore the things that are currently happening around me. Keeping my eyes closed firmly dragging me away from the stinging truths of reality. I tried to pretend, tried to extinguish, tried to remain still, tried to remain in control, and tried to keep myself from breaking down. But love was selfish, it gives happiness to someone, but nothing left, just a prickle of thorns to another. Ever since, I knew I meant nothing to him. Not even a friend or an enemy. I was just a stranger that he never knew about, silent and remote. I keep on telling myself, things will come around in time, but every second wasted was like an eternity of broken dreams and an expanding island of fallen hope.

He was the only one, he was incomparable. I tried to move on, to tell myself he meant nothing to me, that he was somebody that I wouldn’t rather talk about. But now, I am writing this nonsense where 100% inspiration came from him. Until now, at this very moment, I can’t understand myself why I couldn’t say those three words in front of him. Maybe it’s my fear of knowing his reaction. I was so afraid of what I felt inside, afraid of hurting not only myself, but also him. I kept on hiding my feelings away, pretending I was better alone, but I know those things were just mendacity.

Time to time I wonder if I should stop “pinning” after him after all those hurtful moments that had happened to me just because I was so unfortunate to fall for someone unworthy as him. Even though I just want to say goodbye, I know he would take it as a simple farewell mixed with a curt nod. Someday I hope I’ll understand all of these things. At this current point in time, I thankfully have the last confidence inside me that urged me to remain standing and to move onwards. Now I know I was so stupid not to realize that at first he was made up for someone else.

I’ll admit that every time I hear mushy love songs playing on the radio, my mind drifts off back to those times we could just both laugh our head off without anyone troubling us. Until now I couldn’t really understand what are the things that he had that I was so attracted to him back then. I really miss him, but I know he wouldn’t miss me in anyway I would.

~~**Fin**~~

DePpReSsIoNs AnD ConFeSsIoNs

2006-05-15T04:17:00.000-07:00

MooD: MaLunGkoT
LasT SonG SynDromE: Dreaming of You by Selena

“Cause I’m dreaming of you tonight ‘til tomorrow and for all of my life. Cause there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be, than here in my room, dreaming of you endlessly.”

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Alright then, I’ll admit that every time I hear mushy love songs playing on the radio, my mind drifts off back to those times we could just both laugh our head off without anyone troubling us. Until now I couldn’t really understand what are the things that he had that I was so attracted to him back then. I really miss him, but I know he wouldn’t miss me in anyway I would.

Time to time I wonder if I should stop “pinning” after him after all those hurtful moments that had happened to me just because I was so unfortunate to fall for someone unworthy as him. Even though I just want to say goodbye, I know he would take it as a simple farewell mixed with a curt nod.

So now if you (you know who you are) happen to pass by my useless good for nothing site, I wish you would feel something as I bade my final farewell to all those feelings I had for you that I had kept for so long….

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Sige na nga magtatagalog na nga ako. Ayan naging masaya naman ang UPCAT review ko. May bago akong friend kaso kuntento na ako kasi natuto na ako sa kasabihang “You can’t please everybody” kaya di na ako masyadong nakikipagsocialize. Isa pa kinakabahan talaga ako sa pasukan. Magkakalat kaya ako? Maggiging kahiya-hiya? Baka naman maging clown ako sa classroom kasi wala akong magawang tama.

Ang mahirap kasi talaga sa akin, wala akong confidence sa sarili ko. Laging negative ang nasaisip ko kaya feeling ko lagi ang liit liit ko. Pero kinakabahan pa rin ako. Matatanggap kaya ako ng mga classmates ko?

Ang lungkot kasi ng pakiramdam ko ngayon eh pero di ko alam kung bakit. Feeling ko nagiisa ako ngayon lalo na pag wala akong kausap ang tamlay ng pakiramdam ko. Basta ibang level na sadness ito something na hindi ko talaga ma explain.

SoMeThInG ExTraOrDiNaRy

2006-05-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

Geezz... After 1 whole year ay nakalimutan ko ng magupdate.. tapos dun sa huli kong post nangangako akong laging maguupdate..
Tsk..nakakahiya talaga akong bata.. Pero kasi ang dami talagang nangyaari last year as in baka pagalitan ng ako ng webmaster nito pag tinype ko lahat.. Pero ang pinakaimportante lang talaga ay alam ko sa sarili ko na mas nagkaroon ako ng self confidence para sa aking sarili at sa aking kakayahan kaysa sa dati..

Siguro nga becquerel na ako next year pero hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga importanteng tao na kasama ko sa aking mga pagdurusa noong nakaraang taon..

Ang F8's
1. Mari Vrilian Yorobe
2. Hannah Madriaga
3. Rose Anne Dandoy
4. Lea Andrea Balascopo
5. Sarah Faye Rimpillo
6. Vendela Joy Ricardos
7. Lesly Bries

Ang PPG
1. RL Jerlyn Oliva
2. Jamile Ayla Alimanza
3. Iris Charmaine Olaso

Ang Elements specially:
1. Jose Miguel Albornoz
2. Grapes Candelaria
kina Marge, Zulie, etc..

at sa iba ko pang naging malalapit na kaibigan sa klasrum na tumulong sa akin either sa academic man o sa part na pinapasaya lang nila ako pag nalulungkot ako

1. Lowela Aileen Limbaring
2. Reeva Shayne Viado
3. Ma. Reinna Bermudez
4. Daryl Lopez
5. Jennifer Sanchez
6. Maricor Divinagracia
7. Lorraine Cardinal
8. Earl Gamboa
9. Jan Abraham Natividad
10. Olivia celina Iglesia

maraming salamat sa pinagsamahan natin last year.. hinding hindi ko yun makakalimutan.. kung puwede lang talaga sana magkakasama pa rin tayong lahat.. Kasi alam ko hindi ako makakapunta sa lugar na kinaroroonan ko ngayon kung wala kayong lahat. Syempre ibang usapan naman ang family ko at si God dahil siya talaga ang may pakana nitong lahat..I Love YOU!!

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It's Summer!!

Nagsusummer class ako nagyon kasi this August ay UPCAT na..patay ako pag di ako nagaral kasi halos lahat na ng aking mga lessons ay limot na limot ko na.. So sana maging fruitful itong summer kong ito.. kahit palapit na ang tag ulan at sana hindi ako tumaba na naman at mangitim ng sobra sobra...

So yun lang ang Kabuuan siguro ng aking post.. promise ko talaga...maguupdate na ako..

divine

FiRsT wEeK bAcK tO sChOoL

2005-06-10T20:17:00.000-07:00

ayan!! nakakabanas at ngayon lang ako nkapag update!!

......as expected edison pa rin ako along with hannah, lea at iba pa at dahil na rin sa marami ang nalipat ay nagkaroon agad ako ng mga gud friends sa first day pa lang...sila ay sina sarah, bien at rose anne.....

.....walang pumasok na teacher sa amin nung first day kundi sila mam carmona at sir esteban...(ung guwapo naming teacher!)

.....nakaakabanas nga alng kasi hanggang 5 kami araw araw for the whole yaer at lagi pa akong iniiwan ng service...

7:00 - 8:00 english

8:20 - 9:00 araling panlipunan

9:00 - 10:00 advanced statistics

10:00 - 11:00 mathematics

11:00 - 12:00 elective

12:00 - 12:40 lunch

12:40 - 1:20 mapeh

1:20 - 2:00 filipino

2:00 - 2:40 research

3:00 - 4:00 chemistry

4:00 - 5:00 physics

saya nohh!! huleng hule ang mga sciences! grr!!!

.....okay so medyo nakakainis ung ibang teacher tulad ng resarch dahil si mam laging may pinapa-xerox at laging may pinapagawa agad... sila mr. english, at mr. chemistry ay di pa rin nagpapakita at buong week namin sila hindi na-meet na sayang ang isang linggo...

nagkaroon din kami ng elections...

PRESIDENT: LEO

V-PRESIDENT: BLESSIE

SECRETARY: FATIMA

ASST. SECRETARY: LYSSA

TREASURER: KEIF

ASST. TREASURER: MARICOR

SECURITY OFFICER: MANUEL

CLEANLINESS: YEYEL

ORDERLINESS: JEN

BUSSINESS MANAGER: LUIS

AUDITOR: RELLAN

SGT AT ARMS: 1. DIVINE

2. JERMINE

MUSE: CHESKA

ESCORT: DARYLL

ASST. ESCORT: JULIAN

.....medyo nga lang walang unity sa class namin dahil watak watak at may kanya kanyang grupo kaya medyo malungkot din ako... kahit ang mga boys namin ay nahahati sa dalawa....

.....ang kyut ng finilm showing namin: THE TERMINAL starring john hanks and catherine zeta-jones.. katuwa!!

....on the go naman ang week kong ito.. maraming assignments at gawain agad pero masaya naman ako,,, maraming nangyari tulad ng nakita ko si kuya keone sa yellow cab ng di sinasadya at nainlab ako sa isang teacher....

HAI! GRABE THE WEEK THAT WAS!!

..A DaY tO sHoP...

2005-06-04T22:18:00.000-07:00

SaTuRdAy...

so ayan the next next day pasukan naman at kahit wala pang pasukan ay pagod na ako dahil namili kami ngayon ng gamit ng kapatid ko para sa school niya...
actually sa june 13 pa ang start ng class nia kaya lang ayaw ko na makisabay siya sa pamimili ng gamit ko kaya ngayon kami namili..

exage!! ang daming tao at muntik na kami ma-stranded dahil sa bagyo at baha pag uwi namin galing sm... punong puno ang national book store di ka na halos makahinga sa loob!!

para sa sarili ko... marami ako nabili,, including my new pencil case na nasa loob na ang lahat! yehey!!

at saka lagayan ng cd para madala ko yun sa school!! yipee!!!

basta kita kita na lang tayo sa pasukan!!!

EnRoLLmEnT TiMe!

2005-06-02T19:13:00.000-07:00

ThUrSdAY

"A PLESANT POSSESION IS USELESS WITHOUT IT'S COMRADE"
-SeNeCa

*enrollment kanina, pero hindi lahat ay umayon sa kagustuhan ko, masaya ako dahil kami kami pa rin ng mga kaibigan ko ang nasa isang section sila hannah, lea, vendy etc.. at malungkot dahil nwalay sa akin ang mga espesyal sa akin na sina kj at kbp na napunta sa einstein at darwin, nakakalungkot isipin pero ganyan talaga ang buhay, kaya yun ang quote of the day ko... KUNG HINDI LANG TALAGA SA PESTE KONG JOURNALISM NA SUBJECT HINDI SANA MANGYAYARI ANG GANITO!!!

*si "YOU-KNOW-WHO" hindi man lang ako pinansin after months na hindi pagkikita hindi man lang niya ako binigyan ng simpleng hello man lang, kung hindi ang pamatay niyang ngiti!! pero ayos lang yun kasi tinarayan ko rin siya! INIS!

*sila kuya geoff at kuya keone, alam ko di naman ako masyadong mahalaga sa kanila pero NANGAKO SILA!! sabi nila magkikita daw kami sa enrollment at ibibigay niya dun ang reply nia! PERO NAKAKAINIS!

*buti na alng at nakasama ko si hannah kung hindi miserable ang buahy ko kanina!! ang aga kasi umuwi at dumating si lea sila kj naman sobrang hapon,,,, ewan ko pero nakakatamad namang basahin ung mga libro na binili ko.. para kasing ang hirap intindihin kung walang n agtuturo sa akin(masyado aksi akong dependent minsan)...

*ang guwapo ng adviser namin! sana permanent na siya! SI MR. ESTEBAN! teacher namin siya sa physics pero ang guwapo nia talaga!!

*kita kita na lang ulet sa pasukan at sana wag na ako masyado malungkot!

A NeW LiFe AnD BeGiNnInG

2005-05-24T06:00:00.000-07:00

elow po sa inyong lahat!!

una po sa lahat kaya ko po dinelete ung nauna kong blog ay dahil may mga memories ako dun na naisulat at ayaw ko na maalala at saka hindi ko siya masyadong ina-update kaya medyo walang kuwento yun kaya patawarin nio ako

pangalawa ay ginawa ko ito para lagyan ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko ngaung 3rd year ako sa quesci

kaya ang official start ng pag-post ko dito ay siyempre sa JUNE 6,2005

kaya nagmamakaawa ako! wag nio po ako alisin sa mga links nio!!
pangako next year pagsisikapan kong mabuti itong blog kong ito promise!!!